I realise that my beauty blog has been very stagnent of late. I seem to update once every 4-5 days now? And even
with this update, it's not even considered a full beauty post. I know, I'm so bad at this, I'm sorry about it.

The situation is that school's really busy, as mentioned in my previous update entry. It's still the same and will be the
same till about mid-December where my hols would kick in. However the joy is short-lived as school would start in
January and the cycle begins again, probably a lot more hectic then.
I have contemplated taking a hiatus, not because I want to, but because I don't want to make people think that not
updating regularly is a habit of mine. I swear it isn't and I try to update as often as I can, but circumstances just don't
permit right now.
It's like a choice between a hobby and the career, and while I love them both equally as much, we have to stick to what
is practical.

This entry is probably really boring, so I'll just get to the point.
I am trying my best not to initiate the hiatus because I don't think I can bear to completely leave the makeup realm.
And for those wondering, why is school that hectic. Well I am in my last year of school and I am sitting for a Bachelors  
Degree in Graphic Design, which I will attain (if all goes well) in June 2010. Since my course is an accelerated course,
it compiles what most people learn in about 3 years of university into a year. Talk about madness! But it is fun, though
extremely time-consuming and it does take a toll on you, but I refuse to let it get me jaded.

Now on to more makeup related things. Hauls.
I've done minimal hauling these days compared to the past, and though I have touched on this before, I just want to repeat a little again. Not exactly the same way, so I am not entirely perserverating. I know hauls are an exciting thing to read/watch because it just is. With my recent lack of hauling, I do feel my blog getting a little more boring? Though I try not to let that thought be etched in my mind. I mean, I don't want to have the mentality that I need to haul to make my blog interesting. Of course making my readers happy to read my blog is a great thing, but I guess there are probably other ways to make the blog interesting aside from just hauling? I don't know, I hope I manage to do that! I will still pick things up every now and then of course since I can't entirely curb my need to spend. I guess I could say that I have reached an agreement with my conscious and my bank about my makeup addiction. Plus I was browsing my collection the other day and found that some items I owned are still completely unused. *gulp* Not good.

Also, I promised a blog sale, and I will carry through with that. I do have a couple of items stashed aside to photograph
and all. However, as of now I don't think I will be able to launch a blogsale since I would not have time to check back
with my mail, payment and to post out items. Especially since I don't want people to have to wait super long through the process of notifying me they are interested in something and knowing that I have posted it etc. So I'll hold out on blog sales for now, but I am not striking off a blog sale, fret not.

Alright, this entry is trailing on for too long. I just word-vomited right here everything that I had been wanting to discuss for awhile now. I know, word vomit sounds sick, but that's what it is! Lol.
If you managed to sit through my ramble, kudos to you!
I will still be around and still post videos on youtube. I might just not blog in between as often as I used to (for now)

I'll be back in full swing soon, and till then, much loves!
In the mean time, follow me on twitter if you haven't already. I update on tons more regularly then any other internet site I have an account at.
Twitter-obsessed? Most probably.

This really isn't very new news.
If you follow me on twitter or dailybooth you would have noticed me talking about pressing pigments/mineral eyeshadows for awhile now. It's because I haven't had the time to sit down and post an entry on here till now, so I do apologize for the slight belated-ness of this!

Not too exciting a haul, just some basic items.

Lets start off with the empty palettes.
These palettes are magnetic and it comes with the palette case itself along with 12 empty pans. I had purchased this from Magical Tannsu.
I don't exactly remember the price of it, nor do I think it is in the 'regular' catalog on MT. I simply had a sudden desire to press pigments and remembered Magical Tannsu carrying magnetic empty palettes before. So I contacted the owner, Weiduo about it and she said she still carries them. I don't know how many pieces are available though. I think they should be about SGD11.90, but then again I don't have the best memory.

As you can see I've pressed a couple of loose shadows, but the NYX Pearl shadow thingy (top left/pink shade) was a complete FAIL. It was probably the wrong method and using alcohol alone wasn't enough. I am still in the experimental phase of pressing loose mineral shadows so I don't feel confident enough to do a video about pressing mineral eyeshadows just yet. Pressing (MAC) pigments seems like an easy feat as all you need is rubbing alcohol. However when it comes to mineral eyeshadows, it becomes a whole lot more complicated. I'll keep you guys posted on the success of filling up my palettes without the shadows falling apart, I am currently experimenting with a certain mixing medium. If it works, I will do a video about pressing mineral eyeshadows with it!

Moving on, I had gotten another 'second-hand' makeup item.
Though this time it was a brand new second hand; which means I bought it from a seller not a company, but the product itself is brand new and unused.
The item I picked up was a MAC Tendertone in the shade Warm Smile

(I was too eager and swatched it before shooting it, hence...)

I've heard so much about MAC Tendertones, on how they smell incredibly good, which I do second! They do not have the typical vanilla scent that most MAC lip products are packed with. Though I do love the vanilla scent, the tendertones smell equally good. I can't quite seem to list a similar scent, but it seems like a mix of kiwis and berries. Something very fruity, but not perfume-fruity either.

I've heard MAC Tendertones not being the best in terms of pigmentation since they are afterall semi-lipbalms, so I guess I wasnt expecting too much on that fact. The color still does show up and it is still a pretty beige-nude shade on.
Here's a lip swatch, with a comparison to my natural lip color, to show the amount of pigmentation it gives.

My regular lip color

Swatch of MAC Tendertone in Warm Smile

I guess I just like how it gives a bit of a milky coat over the top of my lips, though it doesn't alter my lip color too much.
And a full face shot, just for the fun of (:

That's the haul! I haven't been updating on here very much with beauty-related stuff. I do have a couple of things I want to talk about as soon as I get the chance to. Just bear with me for a little! It's as if someone changed the difficulty level of my school assignments to 'Insane' or something, cause that's what it feels like.
I hope this entry wasn't too boring or hard to understand. It's been a little over 30 something hours without sleep and I can feel my brain dying.

But I seem like I'm whining, so I shall stop.
Thanks everyone for reading!

As mentioned, here are photos of my new hair color! I am temporarily ditching the reddish hair and opting for something a little more understated.
I went for a darker brown shade and re-did my highlights since in the older hairstyle my highlights were all located at the lower half of my hair.

I don't know of any shade that is similar to what the hairstylist gave me as from what I have noticed, my hair isn't quite a true color. It's a dark brown but it leans towards the mousey brown at times and towards a slightly warmer brown at others. Rather strange, but I guess that makes it a little bit interesting? And my highlights are thin blonde strands that spread out across the whole of my head so it provides a lift but is subtle at doing that, not too much of an 'in-your-face' blonde streak.

Here are the shots of my hair I took when I was home.

(indoor lighting - flash)

And here was one my boyfriend took of me over the weekend.

(in more natural lighting - sunlight)

Ignore my expression, was caught off guard. ha.
But I do love how the colors in my hair show up in this photo.

In all honesty, I think I am rather partial to reverting back to reddish hair as soon as I get the chance to. I don't hate this hairstyle, I guess I am just sort of luke warm with it? It is nice and I do love the highlights, but I am missing my reddish hair already.
I guess going red is something addictive. I feel dark hair makes me look a little fairer or paler, whichever. It might just be my mind set though.

I did a video with this hair color and also talked about upcoming videos, you can see the video here:
YOUTUBE// Vlog: Brunette Hair & Upcoming Videos

Let me know what you guys think of this hair color. Love it, hate it, prefer the older one?
I personally prefer my older reddish hair. ha. But oh well, in life you have to experiment!

Edit// Looking at the photos of my new hair, it seems like my hair isn't that much different, so here's an older photo to compare it to.

First off, credits for this eyeshadow combination would have to go to MichellePhan for her seductive vampire tutorial.
A look that she had done primarily for the Halloween season and while I am definitely not dressing up for Halloween right now, I loved the eyeshadow combination she had used so I adopted it and twisted it into something a little more wearable.
Though in my opinion aside from the heavy liner, the eyeshadow look, or rather the whole look itself is quite wearable if you are the daring sort; Minus the pale pasty skin for the vampire effect.

Here's a still from her tutorial video. Credit in this image goes to Michelle Phan.

Do note that this is my take on it and I definitely did not use the same products she did. Neither did I do it the same way.
I was merely inspired by her look. I realized in the tutorial she has red lips on but that's not what I feel comfortable running around broad daylight in, so I made some minor changes to it.

Products Used
(I'm trying to be more detailed with it, so that would explain why the Product list seems so long. And I'm also working the right color to use for it.)

FACE:
- Kawaii Tokyo Brighten Up gel in Herbal Forest (moisturizer)
- Revlon Colorstay Liquid Foundation
- Canmake color stick in 07 (undereye concealer)
- MAC Studio Finish Concealer
- Lumiere Cosmetics Invisiveil (to set)
- MAC Solar Riche Bronzer

EYES:
- Urban Decay Primer potion
- MAC Artifact Paintpot (outer 1/2 of the eye only)
- Maybelline Eye Studio quad in Autumn Spirit (lightest color - all over lid)
- L'oreal Infinite Wear in Brazilian Duo (rustic red shade - outer half)
- Rhomlon Eyeshadow in Black (outer-v)
- MAC Powerpoint Liner in Engraved
- L'ancome Fatale Mascara

CHEEKS:
- Magical Tannsu 6pc Foundation and Contour (contour)
- MAC blush in Intenso (solid side)
- ELF Healthy Glow Bronzing Powder in Luminance (highlight)

LIPS:
- Canmake Lip Concealer in 01
- NYX Round Lipstick in Circe
- Nivea Lipbalm in Cherry (slight reddish tint, not obvious but less nude)

And here's my take on it.
Again, I'm not saying I look like Michelle Phan or my look is similar to hers, it's merely inspired by. Just have to put that there cause some people might try to be funny about it. I'm sure most you all understand what I am getting at (:

Ha, if I were to be a vampire I'd be a tanned one. Porcelain skin and me don't go too well together.
I managed to take photos of my outfit too since I haven't posted an outfit entry in awhile.
I was wearing my combat boots, but pity they couldn't be featured in the picture as well. Though I'm pretty sure most of you guys know what it looks like from earlier entries and videos.

Spaz pose, I know, but I was trying to get my face and as much of my body in the frame!

Top (tunic and vest) combination from Hong Kong,
Leggings from Forever 21.
Necklace from Forever 21
Boots from Dr Martens.

I don't always list where I get what since some of them are random brandless ones. But if they are items you can purchase from known stores, I'll list it.
And last but not list, a cool-ass-teen-wannabe-gangster shot, just for the record.
That just sounded like a bunch of random mad tags.

Okay, on a slightly serious note, say goodbye to faded auburn/whatever color it has become hair.
I'm getting my hair colored tomorrow (Wed 11/11) - LOL at the coincidental date, not planned, I'm not one of those scene kids that need everything done on the same numeral (e.g. 09/09/09)

Not going to reveal the color yet, primarily because I'm not 100% sure myself. But we'll see. (:
Thanks for reading!

For those who have not heard, Stage Cosmetics (available in Singapore and Malaysia) is having a sale-type thing.
A couple of their products, namely concealer, eyeliner, eyeshadow etc, are going for S$10!
This discount is on-going until the 22nd of November so be sure to check it out if you haven't!
(I am not sure if such a sale is available in their Malaysia branches.)

I'm going to honest I never did think much of this brand. However, it seems that a couple of people have been raving about their concealer recently.
Since there was so much hype about it and it was on discount, I figured there was no harm in picking one up.

Yeap, that was the only thing I got. I was trying to convince myself not to get too crazy with spending on makeup with Christmas around the corner.

My shade is in 04 Buff, however I would not say it's the best match for me?

Going to Stage, I did not do any research before hand on the shades they carried so I was a little surprised that they only carried 6 shades, and 6 fairly light shades at that. I think this was the 3rd darkest shade or something, I am not sure. The Makeup Artist swatched a couple of the shades and this was the closest match. Even then it's not the exact same color as my skintone.

Comparing this to my MAC concealer which is a lot closer to my skintone then this is:

p.s. colors seem slightly washed out, this makes me look porcelain.

It's almost half a shade to one shade lighter? The Stage concealer that is.
However though it doesn't match it's still something I can pull off. It does not seem as if I have white patches on my face or anything, so I guess that's good.

Thus far I can say that this concealer is indeed creamy.
Almost similar to the texture of Bobbi Brown concealers.
I can't judge about anything else just yet, but from what I've heard it sounds amazing.
Can't wait to try it out!
I do wish they had a slightly larger range of shades to choose from. But it doesn't matter, I could overlay some shades from the Magical Tannsu camouflage palette if need be.

So that is it for my one item haul.
Anyone else picked this up from the sale?

I am sure some of you have already seen Sophia and Sarah's coverage on the event. But for those who have not, here is my version of it.

I was contacted by Elizabeth Arden's PR to attend their Product Preview/Workshop. During that workshop we were introduced to their anti-aging line, Prevage. Though the main purpose behind this workshop is to preview the newest addition to the Prevage line, their Prevage Day Cream (Ultra Protection Anti-aging Moisturizer SPF 30 PA++). This is not yet available in the market, but is set to launch next week (Friday the 13th! November 2009)

Now, the first reaction some of you might have is 'You are 19! What anti-aging?! You don't need that'.
To be honest, my mentality was rather similar though I was open to the idea of trying out an anti-aging product. As michellephan likes to put it, it's never too early to start. (unless we're talking about the richly formulated ones specifically made for mature skin!)

From what was mentioned during the event, it seems that the Prevage line is not just made to correct any signs of aging and wrinkling, it's purpose is also to prevent it. One of the presenters mentioned that anti-aging or at least aging prevention products are things that you can start using after the age of 18. Based on what I had heard during the workshop yesterday, I am intrigued by the product. Aside from the age prevention factors, the other effect mentioned that caught my interest is that it makes your skin less dull and rejuvenated, which is something I am looking forward to since my sleep hours are so pathetic my skin can't rest enough.

I will be trying this product out over the span of the next week or so and feedback on the effects of it, if I do notice a difference or not.
But for now, here are some pictures from the event. I didn't take a lot because everyone who was anyone there had a camera. Their staff had cameras, all the bloggers had cameras. It was a little overwhelming so I didn't think it was necessary to constantly whip out my camera and join in the photo taking fun.

Picture quality is blah, brought a handy digi-cam instead of busting out my SLR.
Also cause my SLR's battery was kind of dead from a photoshoot I had earlier in the day.

We all had individual shots taken, here's behind the scenes for Sarah's!

Prevage line display

The following pictures are courtesy of Sarah

From the event, we received a goodie bag, with the product to sample and some information about it.

I get a cheap thrill from the lanyard. haha!

That's my little blog entry about the event. I wanted to get it up yesterday but I was beyond tired I wasn't even sure if the entry was going to come out in English. ha.
And yes I need to get a hair cut soon. My hair looks so limp and unlayered. I am probably getting it cut and colored (getting highlights I hope!) sometime mid next week. Will keep you all posted on that again. :)

Thanks for reading!

I Nuovi is currently having this super cool program where you can stand the chance to shop at I Nuovi for free!
Sounds pretty cool doesn't it?

I was informed of this program by mail and I thought it was something really interesting and something you guys might be interested in.
Just a quick word though, this is open to those residing in Singapore only, not my choice! I'm just spreading the word, I don't set the rules.
I am sure most of you are familiar with the brand I Nuovi right now with the reviews, sales information and all that so I shan't go into detail about explaining the brand.

Now I am sure you want to hear the details.
Here is a poster with the information on it but I feel the poster might not be indepth enough. Because I was a little unsure of the program when reading it the first time around. It's not complicated, but it was just not too clear on what the requirements of the program are. However, I did discuss it with Deborah (of I Nuovi) via mail to clear any doubts I had, so I will provide an explanation of the event for those unsure after reading the poster.
(click on poster image to view full size)

The program:
Simply sign up for the program by filling up the form in the format stated in the poster (where to mail to is also listed in the poster). Within 1 working day, they will let you know if you have been chosen for the program.
If you have been chosen for the program, you will receive a S$40 I Nuovi voucher and also a complimentary brow trim card (which is something you don't have to do, but it would be better if you do). What would be required of you is to visit 2 of their outlets as listed in the options (in poster). Either A or B only. After spending your gift voucher and having your brows attended too, all that's left is to feedback to I Nuovi (via e-mail I suppose, they will elaborate further if you're chosen) about the services. You do not have to blog about it if you do not wish to. From what I gather, you might also stand a chance to win another S$40 Voucher on top of what you have been offered in the program if you submit your reviews before 20th November 2009.

So that is all I know from my end. I am not in this program nor am I working for I Nuovi.
I just get sent these mailers and if I think it's something interesting that you guys might like, I'll be sure to let you all know about it!

I guess if you have any more queries about it, it's best to contact the staff directly as I've listed down everything I understand and know of this situation.
Good luck and for those who do get chosen, have fun shopping!

Remember, the deadline is 20th November 2009. And if you get your feedback in before that date, you stand to win more!

I was tagged by heavenlygorgeous, thanks love!

What I got from this tag is that you are to list down your essential/must-have items or items you seem to use on a daily basis.
Now I switch my products around a lot and unlike some of the girls who are really organized and store their go-to makeup items in a compartment of it's own, mine are stored away in their own compartments. For example, foundation in foundation drawer, blush in blush drawer etc.

As such:

Looks kind of messy and cluttered, I know. But I suppose I'm the kind of a person who prefers things in organized mess? If that's even a right term to use. ha!

Still, I managed to pick out the items that I used rather often or I feel is a go-to item.
Some are absolute essentials in the sense that I cannot do my makeup without it. While others are 'if I had a choice out of its category to just pick one, this is what I'll choose' kind of a thing. I hope this analogy is right...

(click to enlarge)

I know, I am so bad at eliminating products that I end up wtih what 17? Is that even legal in this tag?
And as I am typing this, I noticed I've missed out on some rather important items too, e.g. a kabuki brush. Because how else am I going to apply my loose powder without a kabuki. I think all this school work is getting to my brain.
Nonetheless, items I've forgotten to photograph are listed below but marked with an asterisk (*).
I would not be elaborating on all the products since there are quite a few to name already, don't want to turn this tag into too long an entry.

1. 28 Color Palette
2. Cover Girl Lash Blast (Waterproof)
3. MAC Blush in Eversun (Style Warriors Packaging)
4. MAC Powerpoint Liner in Engraved
5. Maybelline Moisture Extreme in Natural Nude
6. MAC Studio Finish Concealer (NW25) - I love the Magical Tannsu one too, they are very similar, but this was more convenient to photograph. Lol!
7. Wet N' Wild Bronzer
8. ELF Eyelash Curler
9. Lumiere Invisi-Veil (setting powder)
10. Bobbi Brown Corrector (Light Peach)
11. MAC's Browset in Show Off
12. Silky Girl O2 Liquid Foundation
13. ELF Healthy Glow Bronzing Powder (Luminance)
14. MAC 129
15. Loewe Cornell random brush - nothing to it, I just use this for my bronzer.
16. ELF Eyeshadow brush - If I am in a hurry this does everything. Lid, crease, outer corner, highlight. 1 brush fits all!
17. Random Liner brush - to set my eyeliner with
*18. Kabuki brush
*19. Urban Decay Primer Potion - how in the world did I even forget this?!

I believe that is it for my outrageous list of essentials. I think a rule needs to be enforced on how many products not to go over. haha!
But regardless, most people have been tagged so I tag everyone else reading this who hasn't done it yet! :D

Another I Nuovi product review, 2 down and 1 more to go! I'm trying to get a little something something for the last review for you guys. You'll get what I mean if it works out (:
But back to the present, the review of I Nuovi's Ultragloss in the shade Rock, and yes I was sent this awhile ago.

This gloss has a brush applicator (very similar to the L'oreal Touche Magique concealer), though it's the 'slightly stiff and might cause streaking' kind of a brush.

Now the color of the gloss does look very pretty in the tube, which also leaves me wondering why it was called something like Rock?
Maybe it's because of the shimmer factor, but when I think of Rock, the first color that comes to mind is a brown and this is definitely not a brown.

Though the color above looks very pretty swatched, I might have to warn you that the color you are seeing is not quite the 'base' color of the gloss. Instead, it is composites of the shimmer in it! Sounds scary? Here's what I mean.

As you can see the 'base' color of the gloss itself is almost clear! It's the shimmer and sparkle in it that is giving it that gorgeous pink shade.
So from that you can already see how shimmery this product is.
When I swatched it for the first time, I immediately knew it was not a product I was going to be slathering all over my lips on a regular basis.
Here is a lip swatch:

In photos the swatch isn't as dramatic as how it looks in person, so this could be a great product to have if you're on a photoshoot and you want your lips to SHINE. Probably a good editorial makeup product, in a sense?

I am not saying it is completely unwearable because I did find a way to pull this off in the most subtle of forms. Instead of applying it all over the lips, simply dab it to the center point of your lips, after applying whichever lipstick/gloss you prefer. I know that trick of dabbing something shimmery and light is a known one, as it helps to make your lips look a little fuller and also gives that extra touch. And what better product to use to do that then one that is just bursting with shimmer!

Now about how sticky this gloss is. I find that the gloss itself isn't very sticky, it's probably average in that sense. BUT the shimmer/glitters are a pain. You can have your gloss completely wiped off, but the glitters will still stay in place on your lips. Good or bad? I'm not sure. With a q-tip and some makeup remover, that problem can be solved so it's not like you will have glitter stuck on you for a day or so.
With all that glitter involved, you would think this gloss might feel grity. Safe to say, I can't seem to feel the glitter bits, not even with gloss wiped off.

A quick word on the packaging. I never liked twist up glosses because I feel sometimes the mechanism glitches and you can spend forever twisting and don't get very much and all of a sudden a huge blob comes out. I might just be inexperienced with these contraptions, but I didn't love the packaging too much. It took me 5 minutes to find out which side to turn to, mainly because when I turned it in either directions... nothing happened? Until a blob appeared...

In all, I'm quite alright with this product. I don't hate it, but I don't love it either. It's probably a personal opinion since I am rather safe with my lip product finishes and stick to things that aren't metallic or overly shimmery. For those out there seeking for something shimmery, a good lip highlight or an editorial-suitable makeup product, this might be of interest. For those who aren't glitter fans and would rather not have shimmery lips, I would say stay well away from this product.

Overall Rating: Fail / Pass / Merit / Distinction / High Distinction

Pigmentation: 4/5 (gotta give it the pigmentation score. Even if it is just shimmer, it's definitely pigmented!)
Texture: 3.5/5
Ease of Usage: 3/5
Packaging: 3.5/5

Would I re-purchase this? No probably not.

I was sent a couple of I Nuovi products awhile ago to try out and share my thoughts on.
I know Sophia and Diana have already given their input on the items they have, so here's mine.

I'll be typing an individual entry for each product, because the OCD organizing freak in me feels its better to do it this way.

In this entry, I'll be doing a review of the Metallogy Eyeshadow

I love the packaging!

The shade that I was sent to try is Patina.

As you can see, Patina is a gorgeous rich brown. I want to say it is slightly copper-ish, but definitely it's a medium brown shade, good for a crease color in neutral eye looks. Of you can even throw it all over the lid if you wish and blend it out at the edges.
From what I can tell, it seems I Nuovi was playing it safe with giving us all rather neutral eyeshadows.

Here is a swatch of the product and this is simply 1 swipe of it, without a base!

I think the color looks amazing! It's a neutral shade but it is rather interesting too with slight warm tones that you know I love because it brings out the warmth in brown eyes. The whole metallogy sound to it isn't intimidating either, you would expect something with a solid silver sheen, but thankfully that is not the case with this shade. Can't comment on the other shades available just yet.

My thoughts
The eyeshadow is very richly pigmented and it doesn't take very much at all to get the color to show up. Since I haven't tried any other shades of either, I can't comment on the overall texture of the collections, but the texture of this particular shade is amazing. I would classify it as one of those 'creamy' eyeshadows. I don't normally like to use that term as describing powder as creamy is quite strange, but that is indeed the case. It spreads on the skin really nice and "diffuses" out very well when blended. There is also ease in picking up sufficient product with a brush. I know of some eyeshadows that are pigmented when swatched with fingers, but don't adhere to brush brustles too well, this isn't one of those.

In general I love the quality this eyeshadow posseses, the pigmentation, texture etc. When it comes to rating the color, I would say that Patina isn't the most unique of browns. For someone with little brown shadows in their collection, this could be something to look into since the quality is good. It is a pretty shade, but if you have a dozen other browns, it tends to not be as 'special'. However, browsing their online catalog, I might take interest in several other colors listed such as Ore, Rosegold and Nickel. So color-wise, I don't think Patina is overly unique, but hey every brand needs a copper brown in their catalog. No? haha.

Pigmentation: 5/5
Texture: 5/5
Packaging: 4/5

Overall Rating: Fail / Pass / Merit / Distinction / High Distinction

Would I re-purchase this? Yes, I will. In other colors of course since I doubt I'll ever run out of this.